The only way for people to truly relate to what I have to say and have been saying is for me to keep things honest and real. I often struggle with the reality of who I really am and who people want me to be. For the most part, I don't care about the perceptions or the clamoring chatter. I care about my family and they are the only reason for the filter. But, through this medium, I find that I can drop the filter and be free to talk openly and honestly about the reality of what my life is, has been and will become.
Someone asked me what I wanted to do, what would make me happy. I want to talk with people, explore ideas, share, mentor, be creative be with creatives. I want success, riches, fortune and no fame but rather acknowledgment for doing something truly great.
I want love, lust and passion. I want laughter, companionship and honestly. I want fashion, music, art and culture. I want the world to be at my finger tips and I don't want to have to settle for one or the other.
Why can't I have it all? Does money buy happiness? If it could buy me all the things I want, if it could provide me the lifestyle that allowed me to be and do all the things my heart longs for, then yes, it can buy me happiness.
I want to be an art director. I want to be a friend. I want to be true.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Looking for Change
"It doesn't interest me who you are and how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not look back."
I have been living in NY for a total of 2+ years now and each of my experiences has been so unique and what is amazing to me, is to think of how much I've changed over the course of those years.
I think of where I was in 2006 and I never imagined that I would be where I am today. As I have maintained friends, made new ones and lost a few along the way, I have lived my life to the fullest. Recently a dear friend of mine, made the most amazing life decision and accomplishment and moved away from the city. It was a proud moment for me as a long-standing friend, but also a moment filled with loss and I knew that they would be moving away.
Transition always presents such a conundrum, but I continue to welcome it. Without it, I wouldn't be right here, at this very moment, writing this blog entry. I sometimes try to imagine what my life would be like, had I stayed in Orlando. I shiver at the thought that I'd be working a mundane job somewhere, making 11 bucks and hour and doing the same thing I had done my entire life --bored and lost.
NYC has made me feel alive. I have genuinely realized the American Dream and I believe now, more than ever that anyone can achieve anything they dream is possible. No one said it would be easy --they just said it was possible.
Lately, I've been feeling like its time for something new...time for a change. I'm not sure what it will bring, but I'm looking for a change. I want to feel inspired, motivated and excited again. The city has a way of draining the life out of its people, but I'm not giving up without a fight.
I'm feeling the winds of change and welcoming it with open arms.
I have been living in NY for a total of 2+ years now and each of my experiences has been so unique and what is amazing to me, is to think of how much I've changed over the course of those years. I think of where I was in 2006 and I never imagined that I would be where I am today. As I have maintained friends, made new ones and lost a few along the way, I have lived my life to the fullest. Recently a dear friend of mine, made the most amazing life decision and accomplishment and moved away from the city. It was a proud moment for me as a long-standing friend, but also a moment filled with loss and I knew that they would be moving away.
Transition always presents such a conundrum, but I continue to welcome it. Without it, I wouldn't be right here, at this very moment, writing this blog entry. I sometimes try to imagine what my life would be like, had I stayed in Orlando. I shiver at the thought that I'd be working a mundane job somewhere, making 11 bucks and hour and doing the same thing I had done my entire life --bored and lost.
NYC has made me feel alive. I have genuinely realized the American Dream and I believe now, more than ever that anyone can achieve anything they dream is possible. No one said it would be easy --they just said it was possible.
Lately, I've been feeling like its time for something new...time for a change. I'm not sure what it will bring, but I'm looking for a change. I want to feel inspired, motivated and excited again. The city has a way of draining the life out of its people, but I'm not giving up without a fight.
I'm feeling the winds of change and welcoming it with open arms.
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